...AL...

So sick...
Damn...so tired...
I don't know...I'm so bored. WTF!! I FEEL SO DAMN ANTI-SOCIAL WITHOUT ANYONE BY MY SIDE ack.
I'm like GGA without somebody.
Makes me just wanna break someone's leg.
Makes me just wanna speak in Chinese, but no, I don't know Chinese. THAT'S THE WHOLE FREAKING POINT.

I think Ima go crazy...
*Stabs a zombie* GORD!!

Buddy: *Walks by* O_O I AM LEGEND!!!!?
AL: *Karate chops zombie* I AM ASIAN!!!!!!!
JC: *Thows stuff at zombies* HOLY POTATO!!!!!!
PTT: DID SOMEONE SAY POTA--*gets hit by a brick*...
Cow: *Poos* owh baby yeah~
AL: NO! NO!! NOO.
JC: ........
Buddy: *Getting chased after by fombies (Female Zombies)* AAAAH!!!! *Dead end*...!!!
AL: *Gets in front of Buddy and throws cow at them* DD< THROW A COW, POO A TOILET!!!!
Cow: WHAT ARE YOU DOI--!!! *Swishes AL*......smooth...
AL: Shut up, cow.
Buddy: AAAHHHH!!! *Being carried away* HELP ME!! Watch where you're touching please OWH JESUS!!!!
AL: *Cow farts into face* MOTHER OF PEARL!!!!!!!!!!!!
JC: *Amazes* wow.......thanks to your hard abs *touches* the brick didn't even stand a chance <3~
PTT: Well, yeah? But the brick didn't hit my perfect abs *falls over unconscious, blood streams down from head*...fmph!
JC: OWH NO MY DEAREST!!!! *Drags PTT away from zombies* GET THE HELL AWAY YOU WOLF!!! *Throws more stuff* HELL YEAH!!
Buddy: NO!! NOO!!!! THIS IS MY FAVORITE HOLISTER SHIRT!!! AAHHH!!!! WTF!! NO no NO RAPING PLEASE!!
AL: *Punches cow in the face* GET THE SHETBAGZ OFF!!! *Dashes to Buddy and saves him* DON'T WORRY!! I'M HERE TO SAV--*gets hit by a stop sign pole*.......
JC: ..............Sorry...
AL: Damn you, JC *faints*..!
PTT: Wow...what just happe--*getting stolen by fombie wolf* UUUOO!!!
JC: AAAHHHH!!!!!!!!! *Picks up cow and throws*!!!
Cow: JESUS!! WHY IS IT ALWAYS ME?! *Smashes into a wall* why...can't I......just..LIVE MY LIFE..??
Buddy: AAAAAAAHHH!!!!!!! OWH GOD!!!!!!!!!! AL!! ALLL!!!! ALL!!! Please wake up I NEED YOU!!
AL: *Kung-fu kicks all the slutty fombies away* ONLY I CAN RAPE HIM!!! GET LOST!!
Buddy: YEAH!!!.................What?
AL: ...Only I can grape him..?
Buddy: Owh...YEAAAHH!!! *Scoots behind AL* I just..don't want to......show off too much of my..soft abs.............
AL: Heh. I love soft abs.
Buddy: Hmmn?
AL: Said I love sofas...STAY PUT *throws beef rice at fombies as they slice into pieces* B-D my specialty~
JC: *Bashes cow into wolf repeatedly* DIE DIE DIE DIE!!!!
Cow: I can't feel my tail.....*farts* moo.
JC: *Bashes cow against the ground* YOU NASTY LIL DIPSHIT!!
Wolf: *Drops PTT and runs*!
JC: PTT PTT!!
PTT: JC...I'm alright.....just a lil headache.
JC: Thank goodness...*hugs* <33~
PTT: (*=w=)o~
Buddy: Hahaha wow~I heart you, babe!
AL: No biggy, love.
Buddy: *Clings* gimme grapes?
AL: .............

And so, AL and JC teammed as KBK, protecting their two most beloved future husbands from the mombies and fombies.
(Sorry...this isn't very funni, wasn't in the mood nor was I focused...I was too distracted haha............haaa...)

1. Your phone rings. Who do you want it to be?:
-Tegoshi Yuya ROFL!! Just kidding...>___>; I don't care.

2. When shopping at the grocery store, do you return your cart?:
-Yeah............................

3. In a social setting, are you more of a talker or a listener?:
-Listener.

4. If abandoned alone in the wilderness, would you survive?:
-YOU BETCHA BIATCH!!!!!!!!!!! I DON'T WANNA DIE A USELESS PITIFUL DEATH!!

5. Do you like to ride horses?:
-No.

6. What would you do if a sexy person was pursuing you, but you knew he/she was married?
-I hate craps like this; so I'd run to find a sexier guy.

7. Are you judgmental?
-Most likely, yes.

8. Could you date someone with different religious beliefs than you?
-If they're in love with the bible, then go to hell.

9. Are you continuing your education?
-YOU BETCHA!!

10. Do you know how to shoot a gun?:
-..No...

12. Do you think more about the past, present or future?:
-Past and Future. Who cares about present.

13. Have you kissed any of your MySpace friends?:
-Maybe..?

14. How tall are you?:
-5' 6" - 7".

15. Last person you talked to?:
-Mama.

16. Have you ever taken pictures in a photo booth?:
-No.

17. When was the last time you were at Olive Garden?
-Never. I heard the food there suckass.

18. What did you do last night?:
-Reading my adorable BL.

19. Where is your current pain at?
-My whole right side due to I just tripped down the stairs 2 days ago.

20. How long does it take you in the shower?:
-At least 20 mins.

21. What movie do you want to see right now?
-On the First Beat.

22. Do you put lotion on your pets?
-...

23. Do you own a camera phone?:
-Pretty much.

24. What’s the last letter of your middle name?:
-U.

25. How many hours of sleep do you get a night?
-7-8.

26. Do you like care bears?:
-A lil since they sort of represent geiz for the rainbows.

27. What do you wear to sleep?
-At home craps.

28. Who’s the funniest person you know?
-Larae.

29. Do you like funny or serious people better?
-FUNNY. I like to laugh, but they shud be serious when I am as well.

30. Ever been to Vegas?:
-Wishes.

31. Do you use cuss words in other languages?:
-AMA YARO!!!!!

32. Do you steal or pay for your music downloads?:
-...................................*coughs*...

33. Is your cell usually on vibrate or ring?:
-Both.

34. Do you need a boyfriend/girlfriend?:
-Not exactly.

NEXT!!!

Are you…
1. A Cuddler?: ...*pukes*...
2. A morning person?: If I can wake up early enough.
3. Are you a perfectionist?: I'm known for it.
4. An only child?: I wishes.
5. Religious?: I'd shoot myself.
6. In your pajamas?: Sort of.
7. Left handed?: Not much.

LAST
1. Friend you saw: Tom and Alex and Kinder and Rickie.
2. Talked to on the phone: I'm not sure.
3. Message over MySpace: I forgot his name.
4. Wore: PJM.
5. Was today better than yesterday?: Worse. I lost every bits of inspiration in me. I can't pick up the pencil.

FAVORITE
1. Number: 7.
2. Color: White.
3. Season: Winter.

CURRENTLY
1. Missing: Uhhh...n..BL!!
2. Wanting: MORE BL!!!!!!!!!

QUESTIONS & ANSWERS
Q: Whats the 1st thing you did this morning?
A: Get on the laptop and read BL xDDD;; rofl. Then I did my morning things after 2 hrs........................

Q: Last thing you ate:
A: Pork Rice with Soup yey!

Q: Do you have anything bothering you?
A: Yeah. My shitty drawings.

Q: What’s the last movie you watched?
A: The Family Link...it's actually a Cdrama.

Q: Where is the last place you went?
A: My bro's room...to watch the Cdrama...

Q: Do you smile often?:
A: Yeah. Only with people I know though; I don't want people to think I'm retarded for smiling for no reason.

Q: Do you wish upon stars?
A: Not anymore. I was foolish and stupid.

Q: Are you a friendly person?:
A: If you don't piss me off.

Q: Where did you sleep last night?:
A: ...My room..?

Q: What color shirt are you wearing?:
A: Elegant black.

Q: Do you have more guy or girl friends?
A: Hmmmn...girls. Too much guy friends, there'd be craps like "slutbags"...

Q: When was the last time you cried?
A: Who cares?

Q: What was your last thought before going to sleep last night?
A: I have to say BL...v////v;; I'm so embarrassed...

Q: What are you about to do?
A: Nothing.

Q: Rate life as of right now 1-10?
A: 0.

Q: What do you hear right now?
A: Music..?

Q: If you could drink anything right this second, what would it be?
A: Raspberry Iced-Tea.

Q: What’s your favorite month?
A: July.

Q: What are you doing at 9 pm tonight?
A: I think I was eating "dinner."

Q: Did you attend your high school prom?
A: No. I hate dresses.

Q: Did you go to someone else’s prom?
A: ...

Q: 4TH PERSON ON YOUR MISSED CALLS:
A: Someone...

Q: DO YOU CHEW ON YOUR STRAWS?
A: I'd choke and puke, so I usually don't.

Q: DO YOU HAVE CURLY HAIR?
A: I'd burn it all off and were a wig.

Q: WHAT IS THE NEXT CONCERT YOU'RE GOING TO?
A: I don't attend concert due to the chaos there'll be, since I am certain that I will pass out unconscious and get stomp on as I die a horrible death. I cannot breathe when there are too much crowds and usually would vomit.

Q: WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU SAID TO SOMEONE AND WHO WAS IT?
A: Kitty stupid - Cherry.

Q: DO YOU WATCH TV?
A: I wishes.

Q: DO YOU HAVE WORK TOMORROW?
A: Slacker.

Q: EVER BEEN FISHING?
A: I can't swim, but yes.

Q: IS MARRIAGE IN YOUR FUTURE?
A: Not exactly; it's either sexy babies or none.

Q: WHAT SHOULD YOU BE DOING RIGHT NOW?
A: Sleep.

Q: DO YOU HAVE A NICKNAME?
A: Al.

Q: DO YOU BELIEVE IN LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT?
A: Piece of crap.

Q: WHO’S THE YOUNGEST ONE IN THE FAMILY ?
A: Me...out of 9.

Q: ARE YOU A HEAVY SLEEPER?
A: Dunno.

Q: LAST TIME YOU USED A SKATEBOARD?
A: 3 yrs ago.

Q: WHERE WAS THE LAST PLACE YOU SLEPT BESIDES YOUR HOUSE/DORM?
A: Uhhhh...

Q: EVER RUN OUT OF GAS ON THE ROAD?
A: Never drove.

You have to use 3 words to answer each question. No more, no less. It’s harder than you think.

1. Where is your cell phone?
-On the floor.

2. Your girlfriend/boyfriend/hubby?
-No waii mang.

3. Your hair?
-Supa model koo.

4. Where is your father?
-Burnt to ashes.

6. Your favorite thing to do?
-Draw BL 24/7.

7. Your dream last night?
-I don't remember.

8. Your favorite drink?
-TradeWinds Iced-Tea.

9. Your dream car?
-Something silver white.

10. The room you’re in?
-Rotten and dirty.

12. Your fears?
-Insects and surgery.

14. Who did you hang out with last night?
-My kitty Cherry.

15. What aren’t you good at?
-Stupid crap sports.

16. Muffins?
-Stop shitting biatch.

17. One of your wish list items?
-Persona 3 PS2.

19. The last thing you did?
-Read lotza BL.

20. What are you wearing?
-Needn't to know.

22. Your pet?
-Supa supa kawaii.

23. Your computer?
-Piece of shit.

24. Your life?
-I have none.

25. Your mood?
-Superiorly messed up.

26. Missing?
-My lazy summer.

27. What are you thinking about right now?
-Watta good song.

28. Your car?
-Black and crapped.

29. Your work?
-Free BL fan-service.

30. Your summer?
-Dead and lazy.

31. Your relationship status?
-Free of cage.

32. Your favorite color(s)?
-White and white.

33. When is the last time you laughed?
-Every single day.

34. Last time you cried?
-Nobody really cares.

35. School?
-Ima bomb it.

Okei okei...I had written the DTD chapter 16(?), but it's so stupid, I'm forced to write it again >3>;; kuu!! THIS IS GOING TO TAKE FOREVER. I read the latest chapter of DTD. I pretty much laughed throughout the whole thing, and I guess...I loved it hahaha...>w>;; butIstillsuckevenworsenow.
I really...am stuck with nothing for the plot. I NEED TO FINISH THAT STUPID FANFIC. Uuuu...

I feel so bad for my "fans" (EL-OWH-EL A-HA-HA-HA), asking me to update soon =-=;;...I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO AAAAAAACCCCKKKEEEEEEEEEEKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK*diez* ughdwhfsjbgnskjfdn...

+But here is what I have:

After I was done with my morning things, the first face I met was Kouji's. "Hey." A sly grin pierced upon my face. He just sort of slowed down from his walk toward the arch through the kitchen, looking at me all confused. His left eye twitched ten times per second. Amazing.

My foot crossed the arch, looking around; and the boy was already there, opening the cabinet, reaching for a bowl almost on the top shelf. Kouji then showed up. The poor boy shifted around quickly, as if fearing he was the prey to all drooling sane creatures...which were supposed to be us? I glanced at Kouji, then back, then the kid suddenly fell backward. I tried, you know. I RACED to catch him, but the other drooling sane creature was closer, and one step ahead of me. Sickening.

I ended up standing like a slice of molten cheese, while watching the parade of nothingness. The boy's widen eyes of shock stared straight through the air, wiggling within my adorable, little brother's arms. What the hell...how cute is this? PIECE OF CRAP!!

"UuOoAHHHH!!!" He screamed, and loosened himself off from Kouji. It was an awkward moment of silence. Was he too surprised and delayed his scream for falling, or was it because it's Kouji who caught him; it's a mystery.
So I decided to say something.

"Takuya." I paused for a moment; had I ever before call for his name?

His face twisted into weird glance at me with his mouth slightly opened. Quickly, he cut his gaze off of me and hid his face away, staring down at the counter.
There was this thing in my chest that was crushing every manliness I had in me, crumbling me to my knees (not really). "C..come here." I gestured toward him, he didn't say anything for the first tick of the clock, as if ignoring. "W...why should I..?"

Even so, he eventually crawled over to me.

((Takuya's POV))

What did he just call me? Brat? Boy? KID?! Random person me?? No. He called me Takuya. Holy crap...did I or him wake up on the wrong side of bed today? Or is it that I've been stressing too much that my ears are messing with me..? MAYBE HE CALLED ME TAKUMA and I mistook it for Takuya?! BUT AREN'T THEY THE TAKUMA (bear) and not the innocent, little me (bunny)? H...he called me by my first name. I was surprised. I mean REALLY surprised. I was thinking of, you know, run away from this weirdo, and smash myself with a stick so I could visit the hospital once in a while. But instead, "w...why should I?!!" then walked over to him just like how he told me to. What the hell?!!?! WHY AM I BEING SO OBEDIENT?!! Though, I couldn't help but to hide my face by only looking away. I wasn't sure if I was blushing, or was I becoming so frustrated that my face felt sort of warm. AM I SICK?! M..must be...
Once every micro 9 seconds, I would glanced up at Kouichi, wondering what he was thinking for real. I was feeling a little bit strange. My eyes could not stop twitching when our gaze met for a microsecond; I flushed. WELL!! What did you expect? This gotta be the first time he had ever been so close to me. I mean like, his arm was over my shoulder. When did I become so close to this dude? Never.

"..You're cute."

S'cuse me?
Wow wow wow wow. WOW. SHOKKAKU!!! My mind went blank like a dead sheep trying to protect its fur...somehow. "D..did you..just say s..s.something?" My mouth began to babble, as a strong force pulled me backward, making the back of my head bounced onto something warm and comfortable. I turned around delighted.........WITH HATRED AND FEAR when it was Kouji's glare down at me eye to eye; so much that it shattered my soul into tiny pieces of crushed potatoes.

"Nice try." He emphasized his tone, as if to determine his seriousness.

"Thanks." Kouichi went expressionless, glancing from this dude, me, dude, me, then himself in the mirror. Just kidding. There wasn't a mirror in the kitchen...BUT THAT'S NOT THE POINT. He needed to stop giving his eyes exercises. I don't know about him, but I was pretty tired already.

"What is going on here?" My voice almost broke.

"None of your concern." Kouji threw me back to the wall. I heard giggles as my back smacked against the hard surface and slid down with a long sigh. Owch?
"Eeheehee!!"
Unconsciously, I glared at the arch way, only to find the other three watching this dumb live-action show of stupidness, excitedly. I did not understand why. These dumbasses...they never tell me anything.

"Hey kiddo." Yura snatched my shoulder and pulled me up.

"..." Thanks...

He just smiled at me and something shimmered within his eyes that had me curiously rottened from within.

"You okei?" Nicely, his voice was easy on the ears. I'm afraid.

"..Y.yeah." I brushed myself off, though knowing that there was nothing. "What's wrong with them?"

Yura looked back at Hoshi. Hoshi looked up at Jei. Jei looked at himself through a glass window (by the arch).

"YEAH!! That totally helped."

"I know right! Need more gel!!" Jei ran off to the restroom.

...I...stayed quiet for a while. Even if I asked them a million times, I don't think EVER they'd answer me the right way.
Kouichi stood still; Kouji as well. They were exchanging glares or something. I felt a powerful barrier of PMS, choking me to spit. Should I stand up to them and stop this stupid stare contest?

"H...hey Yura..." I mumbled, then he looked at me. For a five seconds of pausing, I told him nevermind, and went to ask Hoshi instead. He seemed to be a pretty serious guy; so hopefully, I'll get some real response.

"Hey Hoshi."

"Yeah?" I guessed this was probably his first word to me. It was strange.

"Why are they standing there like burning statues?"

He shrugged, and just sort of narrowed his eyes at me. I turned my smile upside down, then streched, strached and away. I didn't have much choice, but to ask the starters themselves.

"Oi!!" No one looked. I was completely ignored by the two. "I've had enough of this crap. I'M HUNGRY. Get the eff outta my way, you piece of statues!!"

"Stay out of this, kiddo." Kouji blazed the air with his fierceful arm. A strong blow of wind slapped me in the face as my head was smashed against the fridge. Actually, I was trying to dodge the deadly assault and tripped causing myself brain damage. It's okei. I totally WANT BRAIN DAMAGE. A LOT.

"Pfffttt!!!!" Yura cracked at it, I felt like crawling in a hole and pass out there. No one really payed any attention to me at all; not like I want any from these people. Still, I wished that brat would just stop harrassing me.

Yura stopped giggling, became quite serious. "Who you're calling brat?"

H...HE READ MY MIND!!?!
"..." I blankly stared at him for exactly five full minutes of distress.

"What? You finally think I'm attractive~?" his hand traced onto my cheek, "Maybe..I can keep you company tonight."

Hoshi went wild on a horse rampage or something, as he super-smash-mario the wall, then lifted Yura up with his bare arms and away to the living room. What the...some crazy person just now......Same time the two brothers snapped and surrounded me with unnecessarily attention. Their voices overlapped each other. I thought my head was about to explode. It was more like they were fighting to see who can talk to me first or so I assumed. They were biting each other's head off. Soonafter, I pushed them through and took a deep breath.

"I'm sorry if I done anything wrong." Not. "But seriously, I don't know what in the holy hell is going on; so please spare me. I will make you ramen from now on, if you all can just stop...and tell me something. ANYTHING."

"Well..." Kouichi hesitated.

They exchanged glares once again, I decided to place my hand onto their shoulders. Now why would I wanna do that?
Immediate reaction shot at me fully holes. I backed down and retreated my hands, though Kouji shrugged it off before I could do so, and Kouichi just kind of held onto it.

"Ahhh!!! No!! I WAS ONLY TRYING TO calm YOU TWO down..!!" The dont-hurt-me flinched through my skin, as I shelled up my eyes from the pain that will befall upon me.

"..." Kouichi gripped harder onto my fingers, pulling me closer to his chest with his other hand landed onto my waist. "You know..." His words smoothed out my dazing off, though I was still a bit frustrated with confusion. I could feel his hand skimming down to my thigh. Why didn't I do anything?! DON'T JUST STAND THERE, YOU BIG IDIOT. Move...I was about to duck down and roll over to the other side of hell; my hands were captured by his. I..was I freaking out? Because I think I'm being teased. His voice was really really easy on the ears. Had he always been this way? Why am I asking myself so many dumb questions?!
When I snapped out from my mind, he brought our...OUR hands to his lips, and kissed MY fingers. "Make me some ramen, okei?"

"Y..ye......NO. I MEANT NO. Do it..yourself!!" I flapped his hand off of mine, then walked quickly to the counter. My heart had some pretty good pumps that I could really felt it breaking my rips, and my blood was rocketing off the hays to my head. It was sort of hot. Howh geez, what now? A shiver sent down my spines, realizing a sudden stare stabbing onto the back of my head; but I still calmly took out a bowl and a bag of MAMA noodles.

"Hah! Smooth." Kouji smirked, then cracked his neck and rolls his shoulders.

"Whatever, ponytail." Kouichi sighed shortly. There was anger in it, I supposed.

"Shut up, smart-ass."

Woah. The house is on fire today. FIRST THING IN THE MORNING...how lively. "Uhhh.n......" I should stop this before it starts, "would you two please calm down? I will make noodles for both, alright? Settle down." Some steps creaking up behind my back, I left alone. Just when I began to be able to distinct this pressure; it was probably Kouji. Eek! My mind just froze when he stood tall right next to me, and leaned over my shoulder. His breathings blew away all my thoughts.
"W..what are you d..doing..?"

There was a little pause before his simple-minded response of "Nothing."

"You're...making me feel VERY uncomfortable, if you haven't realized that."

"So what?"

"Back off?"

"Not now."

"You! Ah...darn...too much water.."

"Then that's probably not mine."

I turned around sharply, facing him nose to nose, eyes to eyes, mouth to...DON'T EVEN THINK ABOUT IT. "Hey~" I smiled, placed the palm of my hand onto his chest softly, and ran it down slowly to the center, as I walked toward, making him to walk back. "Why won't you LEAVE ME alone today?" I pushed him slightly, then he sat down. At that time being, I noticed that Kouichi wasn't around anymore.

I COULDN'T LOAD MY SIMS!!!! AAAACCCCCCKKKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO!!!!!! WHAT?!! TO!!! DO?!!?!!?!
Ugh...
Ima download the EPs for it, then wonder what will happen >3>;;;...

AND DON'T WORRY MY DEARS!!!!!!
I WILL update my fic on FF.net...TT___TT I'm just stuck with a plotless diploma (whatever that meant). I'll think of something...uu...

I really do miss CGing.
I had always hated myself for sucking so bad; but now, when I look back...I don't suck as much as I thought I did before. The colors I used were so pleasant in my eyes now, that I couldn't believe I did not realize it then. I want to CG like that once again. I tried many new CGing ways, but I guess nothing was enough. Kuso. Maybe...I should learn to like my art some more.

Critters should die and go to hell for degrading an artist and make them feel like shit.
Unless they're ones who can eat shit then okei, whatever your business.
But sorry, I'm not the type who can. And I DETEST people who said I should do this, do that, when I CAN'T and I don't want to.
Traditional is hard. One mistake, it's permanent. I cannot use pen, so shut up, okei? Not like I had never tried. I wasn't born with that much skills. It pisses me when people expect too much from me. I can only use pencil. PENCILS. Because I'm a newb, an amateur. Happy now? I'm degrading my own self just so you critters would just leave me the fuhk alone.

Thanks.

I have been saving Dolls chpt 1 to 4 within my *coughs*BL*coughs* folder for a while and never dare to read it. You can say that I'm a weird person. A really, really, REALLY weird person. =-=;; okei...don't degrade me that much...I don't even know how can people misspelled "weird" so much. Anyways, I don't know why, but it's like Reborn. I read it once, never read it twice.
I don't know why I do what I do, but I'm afraid of something...or something. There's this thing in me that stop me from reading things that I find most exciting. I downloaded Reborn latest raw chpts down and they stayed there until they like rot into cat fur or somehow. I find it strange, though I couldn't bring myself to read them. So the chapters add on. I do feel like a weirdo sometimes. So then, just now, when the internet went out. I re-read most of the BL I find inexplicit A.K.A. no sex (you know like Takaboshi-sama, Yamato-sama, Riri-sama, and of course Toko-sama [CAFE LATTE I'VE BEEN READING IT OVER AND OVER THE WHOLE DAY]; if only I saved Hideki-sama's work)...
Then unknownly, I saw Dolls sitting within the folders and molded after months months of being there invisible; I, once, clicked on the first chpt. As always, shounen manga ALWAYS start out with a LOT of writings and readings. I was like...NOOO!!!!!! My eyes are in really bad condition *won't stop twitching*, so I skipped them all xDDD;; lmao...AT LEAST I KNOW WHAT TOKKEI IS ABOUT *B-D killing without a second thought YEAH *koo'd*. Anyways, GORE. I got hooked *spills blood* =-=llll;;!! IT WAS SO GREAT OMGOMGOMGOMG!!!!! I KNEW IT!!!!!!!!!!!! ACUTE GIRLS-SAMA!!!! (Since there are so many members in this I can't remember all the long names MY JAPANESE SUCKS spare me -samas) *Bows 2478234958437893043 times* AS EXPECTED!!!!! Everything is...PERFECT. *Criez a river* Owh joy~
Now I know why I don't read what I love the most...because I love them so soooooo much; I couldn't bare to read them even when I finally got my hands on them. And I guess I'm not sure why, but I guess...I just don't want to ruin my excitement when I begin to read them. I don't want to ruin anything and just want to keep them as my most precious treasures I supposed? I don't know. Once I read them, I fear most that I might get obsessed with them (like I did with Reborn, still am, then now Dolls, owh God). Then there won't be a second time of me reading them (I still keep them for no reason: treasure). I'm just afraid if I read them again, I'll read them again, day after days; maybe one of those days, I might get bored with them, that I would cry...for no reason.

I'm a weirdo, yeah, so what?
I'm just glad I finally read Dolls...great...now I have to endure the time being of Entropy releasing the next chpts...URGGGHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!
I dislike waiting, just like Cafe Latte monthly published magazine BeBoys (I think there's an x in them, or whatever I dunno much about magazines)...HUUUUUUUUUHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!! TODAY'S SATURDAY THE 7TH OF JULY OF 2000+7!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *Diez* this should be the day I die.

Uhhh...well...you see...
Wow. CAFE LATTE IS SO CUTE OMGOMGOMGOMG *diez* dammit.
I had read Cut before. LOVED IT.
Never knew it was from the same creator. Woah woah I still can't stop thinking about Cafe Latte now ahahahahah*shootz self*. Toko Kawai...IS SHE RELATED TO THE GREAT HIDEKI KAWAI?!! *Shootz self 2nd time* >____>;;; that'd be pretty koo tho..........................

I wanna read chapter 2 *criez a river*...TAKEUCHI-KUN IS NOT A SHOPLIFTER owh man owh man.
>3>;; ugh...why do I always over-reacting at everything.
I'm really dying to read the next chapter...I WILL BE WAITING *goes smashes flowers*...

Beside reading, watching, and obsessing over Reborn; I do have other things on hand B-D *koo'd*.
I LOVE OOFURI.
SO CUTE SO CUTE. That's the only word I can describe the whole serie and every characters there are. CUTE. Kawaii.
Mihashi is so cute. Tajima is really cute. They're both really stand out hahahaha. I really like Tajima though. He's so nice and energetic most of the time, and so kakkoui. "There isn't a ball that I cannot hit." LMAO OMGOMGOMG so koo. HANAI-KUN JUST GOTTA LOVE HIM *coughsblooddiez*.
Anyways, I don't know what drove me to draw Tajima, well, for all the reason he's too koo; but it should have been AbexMihashi.



I might draw more later.
It seems that I'm on a break, but whatever. It's hard to get inspire =3=; nomatterhowmanyBLIread*coughs*.

EDIT: Holycrap ANOTHER HUGE ONE. xDDD; Ugh...I cudn't tell the difference when I look at it on DA...>3>;; uh huh huh huh.
Anyh0ow, I'm still an amateur at color pencils. I have no high expectation in me whatsoever to not make the skin so orangy.

EDIT!! If you look closely...I REALLY tried to make the freckles show...>___>; I failed.

Aha...here's another piece of Reborn.
MukuHiba.
xDDDDD;;; there;s no better than to put together the two coolest characters B-D;;...THE OTHERS ARE KOO TOO BUT!!!!!!! *Getz shot by Tsuna-fans, Yama-fans, Goku-fans, Dino-fans, Lambo-fans...* ACKKK!!!!!!!!!!! SO MANY FANS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *Diez*...

So...you know, my second fav is YamaGokue. Then DinoSquaro xDDDD;;;; ehehehe*coughsblooddiez* I had thought about Tsuna and Basil...but I fell forth ans smashed my head through a wall...Who will be the seme...?!?!!! THEY'RE BOTH SO GIRLY and both have girls' voices. EEK. Nightmare.
I know. Because I watched eps whatever he showed up and...ACCCKKK!!!!!! SOUNDED TOO MUCH LIKE A GIRL NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.

Wth.
I think I was here to post a pic...SO HERE IT IS *smashes head*...



The new Photobucket link system doesn't work...if they hadn't realize that. BUGGING ME!!!!! Gotta go with the old fashion way. I hate it when thing get upgraded. but worse than the oldiez. JUST LIKE DA. Omgomgomg. It feels so dead there. I rarely get on it now sigh.

EDIT: WOAH. It's huge xDDDD;;. Lmao. The other one I resized it, so it's so smal comparing to this HARHARHAR. Anyways, it's always embarrassing to draw half-naked guys xDDDDD; LMAO.

YamaGoku.
The number 1 couple of Reborn. Lolol!! Mysteriously, they're always together.
I guess Tsuna could be with ANY of the guys hhahahahahah...so uke...>3>;;. Don't you ever realize it? Why are other guys have such seme faces, while he's stuck with the cute. innocent, big eyes uke-looking, baby face and why does he looks just like the girls, especially Kyoko. Everyone revolves around him. So you can pretty much pair him up with anyone guys*coughsblood*.
Wait. Why am I talking so much about Tsuna...I don't blame people for loving Gokudera so much. He has a really cute personality. And that one episode...Tsuna was a real asshole to him...or so it seemed to me that he was being a serious pieceofcrap. That damn coward, thinking Hayato is all scary and shit. PISSES ME OFF. Watta dumbass.
Anyways, my number favorite character is Mukuro, second Hibari. So to me, they're my golden couple xDDD;; ahharharhar. Hibari used to be my fav fav fav fav to the TOP. Then Mukuro appeared...it was hard to decide so they're fifty fifty on the same level...I supposed xD;;;.

I WAS JUST MEANT TO POST ART, BUT SOMEHOW TALKED TOO MUCH so here's the pic:



HAHAHA!! So colorful.
Since my tablet DIED, I have to stick with traditional; which I had really never try seriously at, because I suck really bad. That's why I never even considered trying color pencils. I don't know how, but I hadn't practiced color pencil seriously since elementary school. I don't even know how did the art turned out like that...hahahaha...=3=;;...

BUT I'M GETTING MY TABLET BACK PRETTY SOON YEah.

It's been half a year since I last been here o30;;...crazy...
Anyways, my Tanjoubi is coming up soon. It won't be anything exciting so I have no clue.
All I've been doing all day is play Sims 2, or read BL. I need to catch up on BLEACH. Probably about 5 episodes behind, you know, episode 123.
Did you know my tablet died so now I couldn't draw crap?
Yeah...
So now, I don't know. Let's all lay on the ground unconscious and rolled onto my kitties until mom agrees to buy me a new tablet.
Owh wait, she did.
Well, roll on kitties anyways.

I MISS CGING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
MY SKILL IS PROBABLY DULLER THAN A PIECE OF MEAT RIGHT NOW!!!!!!!!!!?!
I wanna draw a BL manga *criez* blergh...

...KHR ADDICT NOW!!!!!!!!!!

REBORN IS SO AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*B-D Kooliawesomous!!


BLBLBLBLBLBLBLBLHIBARIHIBARIHIBARIMUKUROMUKUROMUKUROTSUNATSUNATSUNADBHFJNDSK Pwubjnfs*diez*...

Errh...

Got nuttin ta say...just wanna update?






DINOxSQUALO!!!!!

I ain't gonna retype w/e I sed so herr: http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/46382474/

I dunno either my skill had improve or not, cuz itz so unstaple...I'm becoming aware of watever piece I draw is gonna be different that ppl won't recognize my style >___>;;. Thatz gonna suxass. Owh well, I'm still an amatuer, a 15-yrs-old who hasn't manage to master those gorgouesly unspeakable skill YET and desperately trying. I only been CGing fo a yr n a half...that doesn't rly say anything tho. Cuz...I can't even draw, CGing ain't gonna matter u no u no.



IMA BECOME A FAMOUS BL MANGAKA U ALL JUST WAIT N SEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

xD; like 273682874 more yrs LMAO. I'd be rotting in the dirt.

Hmmm...
Gaia Shop...so many orders, itz kinda killing me.
But...$20!!!!!!! <333333333333~THAZ LOVE AHAHA!!!
Man...so many to draw, but OKANE NO TAME NI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Owh btw, Yuki-nee-chan told me to watch this one Anime. I believe itz Hirugashi no Naku Koro ni.
Omg...the beginning...is......so bloody violent o_0; AHAHAHAHA!!!!!
Now I know y she loves it so much.
But BLEACH is still my fav of all time *heartz*.
I just dun get the whole repeating the story plot with same characters, but just alternate endings. The first one is the best.
Keiichi was my fav. Yes...WAS.
Now...my fav is Satoshi even though he'd just appeared. I won't make fanarts of him tho, cuz like...his hair is....blonde...
LOL!!!!
I dun like CGing yellowz...
N de rest r like...girls, so...no waii in hell. I dun like any single one of em. Maybe Shion, shez koo cuz in eps 17 (or 16), she beat up Satoko which is omfg TCHYESSS!!!!!
THATZ WAT I'M TALKING ABOUT!!!!!!!!!!!!
Rena is just sick, cuz acting all cutesy n shit. That applies to...watz that girl's name? Rika? Ye...blue hair.
Mion is okei, who else? I dunno...but Shion seems to be de best ahaha!!!
She sacrificed her fingernails xD;...THE POWER OF LOVE AHAHA!!!!! 8DDDD;;;;;;;;;;;;;;. My fingernails will stay if I was her ehehe *b-D; meaning those ppl can like die. PFFFTTTTTT!!!
But u'll never know, I might change my gutz.


Anyways...
I wonder if therrz any new Anime that is GOOD!
I hate Anime wherr a whole bunch of girls fight over one guy, itz sick. Mostly, wen the one who will get him is de sickiest girl who acts all cute n innocent n shit *throws up blood*.


GINTAMA!!!!!
I LOVE YURA IZUMI!!!!!!!!! SINCE SHE DRAW GINTAMA FANARTS, I'LL DRAW GINTAMA FANARTS TOO AHAHAHAHA!!! 8DDDD;;;;;;;;;;; *sweatzdiez* Hah!

...L...Long time no see o_0;;...
I've been updating my journal at WordPress.com, so ye ^^;...ehehe...

N...so....I haven't been drawing anything lately, so I have nuttin to draw at all. Sigh. Suckess!
I suck anyways.
Man, I've been stressing over skoo a lot a lot a lot!!!!
Wen I sed skoo, I meant EVERYTHING.
N wen I sed everything, I meant JR!!!!!
A supa hottz guy n possibly de hottest guy u've ever seen.
Man owh man...
I just want to disappear.
Ack!!! LOVE IS SO EFFIN COMPLICATED AHHH!!!!!
...I dunno wat to do...
Itz effecting me a lot aiiyaaa~

MY NEW OC!!! *q*;; Kotobato Bosatsu xD;; *shootz self* LOL.

PLZ DRAW HIM!!!! ONEGAI SHIMASU!! IF U HAVE ANY SPARE TIME! ;x; PLZ DRAW HIM!!! Lol...cuz usually wen my OC dun get much attentions then...I'll get bore with it n make new one =____=;; so I rly wanna stick with him n THE END. LOL.

This is wat he looks like ORIGINALLY. If I draw him in different clothings then...just mean he doesn't wear de same clothingz de whole time. LOL.

Full Image, plz go ta my DA: http://al-sama.deviantart.com.
Ya...I was debating between black n white hair. They're both so awesome but I picked black cuz....black is sexy n...LOL me B-D azn HAHA!!! *Diediez*.

Basicz
Name:: Kotobako Bosatsu.
Race:: Asian.
Age:: 15.
Family:: None or more specifically, they dun exist.
Siblings:: The only son.
Height:: 5'7".
Gender:: Male.
Nickname:: Bo-chan, BK, Bkun, Bobo...etc.

Appearance
Skin:: Normal.
Eyes:: Silver/black.
Hair:: Black.
Ears:: Human derrh, with 2 ear pierces on each x''D.
Horns:: None.
Tail:: This is so not a fantasy OC kk O3>;;.
Dress:: Clothings that have warm colors n go together, cute, have a lil heart somewhere in em, stripes, DEFINITELY POLO SHIRTS, checker box, stockinz, glovez, furry stuff, just use my refs.
Tongue:: .......Okei? Human....-ish?

About
Pet(s):: No.
Favorite Food:: Sushi/or anything contains rice xD;;;.
Greatest Fear:: Errh...letz see..no rice LOL.
Occupation:: Highschool student...I'm guessing.
Hobbies:: *q* Modelling, hangs wiz Yuu Jigokuji, health freak, can't think of any at de moment.
Abilities:: .......
Skills:: Hez one useless sonofa LOL!! >3>;; He is if Yuu'z not around x''].
Faults:: None.
Home:: Lives with Yuu...obviously.
Personality:: Fun, enthusiatic, sarcastical, violent at times, sorta loud, easily criez (me: >3>;; tch wuss LOL!!), I'll add moe later.
Emotional:: Huh?! xD I dun get this but I'm filling it out anyways. God I still dun get it xD;;.
Animal(s) they can transform into:: ...............................Asafdfsfg!! I'm not very fond with these kinda crapz.
Favorite color:: White.
Instrument:: He has no skillz remember?
Music:: ...I dunno, w/e I listen he listens LOL!!
Weapon of choice:: Bootz xD;;;;; LOL! Just kiddin. I'll see wat I can fill out herr.
Face Paint:: Naw. I dun wanna ruin his "pretty" face LMAO!! *Diez*.

Anything u can suggest fo an add I'll thnk about it :''].

I HAVEN'T UPDATE xD AHHH!!!!

Okei...^^;;; Just wanna say...plz visit my website =__= n some comments plz...
TO.FU x RA.MEN

To.Fu is ma homie B-D Seimei.
Watz her LJ? I forgot xD LOL!!

Anyways...finished some Gaia commish n....;___; my shopz closing sigh v___v...



SRY THAT THEY LOOK LIKE GIRLS >n>!!! CUZ THEY'RE GUYS >.>;;; bleh...I need to fix my style Y___Y *tears*.

Am I pro enuff yet? *scolds*

Wat'd I tell ya...

......I'm NOT cryin.
My birthday....has always been de worst day of my life.

I was so hopin nuttin bad or nuttin at all to happen.
But in the end.....I got yelled at for being "stupid".

De electricity went out from monring til now...
Wen de guy came ta fix it.
I was happy of course....I went up to my room noticing de air conditioner was off, so I thot de guy turned all electrictiy off to fix things.
N so I waited for awhile. I came over to the air conditioner.
I realized somebody had already turned it off. N I switched to On itz still off.

I came downstair.
Then noticed de guy has left. So I talked to Ma n asked y de air conditionerz still off. She asked me if de guyz still here. I sed no then shez started ragin n shit at me.

I yelled back.

She just had a small fight with ma older bro n he left to work...late.
So itz probly half of that she got pissed n started to bitch at me for being so stupid....n shit.

I actually sed BITCH n STFU.
Ma other bro slammed my door cuz I had it locked.
Wen I opened he bitched at me moe.

I was just like...Great...Can this day get any better?
Ma still yellin outside of my door for more than 10 mins then chilled.
Her words made me just want to die n disappear.
I started to cry.
But thank god...ma oldest bro who had left wasn't therr....else I'll get bitch even moe...worse.
It always happens.
I know it.
No one has ever been on my side.....except for my dad........but hez gone.
I guess he was the only one who can actually bare with me. Heh...
N I ain't lyin....wen onez started to yell at me...others began to yell at me.
........I probly am........always wrong.


Now all I want to do is lock myself in my room for a few days.
N u wonder y I feel like an outcast in this family....I dun get along with anyone. God.

Haha...here I am...tryin ta fit in by sittin at de dinner table to eat today for once....n then wat I got?
That....being bitched is wat I got......itz not de first time anyways.
I guess....stayin in my room like this is de best way fo me to gettin away from de yellins.

See wat I mean? From one lil thing...it became so bigg in my family then it goes into other things.
I hate living here.....


...............N ye...some of ma homiez called to tell me a happy birthday...hah....yay.......
Happy Birthday to me.


.15.


EDIT: OMG!!!!!!! THANK YOU SUKEBANDEKA!!!!!!!!!!!! ;__; ur de only one who'd given me a gift today...wah~I haven't even check it out yet....but I'm just rly happy........

Yo.
Welcome ta Alz long-assed journal.



@!$*!~%&*^!!!!!
Tomorrowz ma b-day ;__;...wait!! It IS tomorrow...cuz itz like passed midnight...so....
*Sadz*

Damn....this sux.
I hate it wen my bdayz comin n happenin.
Cuz it'll be like....DE worst day of my life EVER.

Well...anyways...
Letz say...I'm not any better or worse than yesterday.
Cuz I'm more than rdy to stab someone. But...I drew something o_o........WAH!!!
=__=---> fuu~n it actually brought me some watchers. I mean...dude...a 2hrs of artwork man...n I was just crappin around with it....no serious stuff...I was surprised ppl got interested in it...like....within s split second I got comments n favs....T__T that kinda make me.............happy.

I'M STILL NOT HAPPY WIZ DE HAIR!!!!
All black n shit. Crap...py highlights..............................wasted of $80 sigh.

Thatz de BEST pic I can get of my hair.
Sry...got no real camera...just phone camera =__= bad quality sigh. But see...itz all black ;__;. Can barely see de blonde highlights thingy.

AII~!!! I LOOK SO EMO XD gAH!!!!!
T__T damn...I'm not emo....I dun wear t-shirts. I dun like black much but itz koo. I do NOT like guys in girls pants unless they're supa uppaly hottz...WHICH...ain't nobodyz gon be hotter than JR so no. N....I doubt that preppy HOTTZ guys like mo girls o_o am I not right?
So in order fo me ta get JR...I gave up on wearin T-shirts n BLACK.


AIIi!!!!!!! Dun read de journal cuz I'll feel rly gay n crap if u do =__= fuu~

[E X O T I C]~[L O V E]
+To do List:
I-Draw. I felt better =w= fee~thx ta SOuth Park o_o.
II-Cut my bangs/hair. Did that @ like...5AM haha!! XD Wen I just woke up today...
III-Get new highlights fo de hair B-D. SUX LIKE SHIT!!!
IV-Buy new make-up.
V-Draw Manga T_T. Now that I think about it...Ma is rly hopin fo me ta win de contest v__v n I can't let her down....twice.
VI-Finish Gaia Commish: 1 out of 8 commish. No need. Ima fckin close it soon. Fckin slick. FCK EVERTYHING!!! Fckin...........Nobody needs any shit from me anyways.
VII-Edit To.Fu ArtShop.
VIII-Give Bumpers on Gaia Freebies T__T;. My arts worth shit.
IX-Make a Website o_o.* Then wat? Feelin ashame fo lettn de ppl see these shit?!
X-Shop new KOO clothes *cough*like Polo shirts*cough*.
XI-Hang out in de mall on Sat. FCK-d!!!
XII-Beg Ma to lemme stay here insted of goin ta de new house, even if just one day of skoo is fine [J R].
XIII-Find out whoz "Musaab" aka "John" on MySpace (seems ta have de preps on his side o_o). Someone who I used to live down de street...still dunno de damn kid tho o_o.
XIV-Wait fo KyleK ta get on Yahoo so I can crap @ him fo not givin meh JRz yrbook pic o_o (kiddn?). He sed this Wed he will T__T else Ima kill.
XV-Kill self. I already am dead.

Yo.
Welcome ta Alz long-assed journal but this one so long XD haha comparation >.>;;.
BDAY IN COUNTDOWN: 6 Days.



Ye...I downloaded down the trial of Painter 9.5.
Omg!! Itz so complicated @__@;;; so many functions n crap, so I was like, WTF?!! Wherrz de pen?! gAH!!! T__T;;; It was frustrating.
But itz soooooooooo koo...I HAVE TO HAVE it.
TTnTT Itz just soooo koo~!!!!!!!! Wehh.


"[Oh Snap!] How come everytime you come around my London London Bridge. Wanna go down like...Londi Londi Londi~.."
TINK I JUST FOUND A NEW ADDICTION.


And so...I made a sketch out of Painter...ToT it actually took me FOREVER to get the line non-pixel n crap. WAH~!! ;__; I need more time to practice/learn wiz it...v_v only 55 more days left of trial. NOOOO!!!!!!

Sigh...
Anyh0ow...

My crappy Fantasy sketch.


Yesterday was so weird d'OMG.
I mean...I went ta da mall wiz ma homie, Chippy. Haha.

We walked back home @ like 4PM. Mall closes @ 5PM on Sunday. Yeh...Ppl stared at us everywhere we go T__T it kinda bugs me *cough*dun gimme too much attention*coughcough* erh hermm!!
Anyways...It was depressing there weren't a lot of hottz guys in mall or out on de street on Sunday TTnTT *cries me a river*.
I'm not a flirt or watsoever. I'm like de shyest person u'd ever seen.
And so...we came out of the path n I'm close ta ma home.

Shit I need ta cut my bangs o_o;;;.

This one old man was walking out from a groccery (SP?) store or something. I was like Blergh.
We stopped in front of a...cherry tree (?) n Chippy started to picked out the cherry-look-alike thingy...to throw down de dirty valley ^^;. Heh. Yeh...

We talked a bit then I was surprised that the old man hasn't passed us yet. Itz been almost 5 mins. I looked over he was standing like....10 ft. away from us n was staring at us. I turned to Chippy and continued walking, Watta creep. I thought.
He started walking right after we passed him.
Ew shit.
Chippy threw de cherriez soon the old man passed with two constantly glance at us. MUTHAFCKASONOFBITCHPIECEOFSHIT STOP FCKING STARING AT US!!!
I was gettin a bit irritated.
Chippy didn't seem to notice...T__T I swear to God shez so stupid it almost pissed me off. N so...
De old man got ta de bridge/highway n stood there, pretendin to be looking at de dirty river. I glanced quickly over. He was looking at me so I walked behind de cherry tree as fast as possible (there are more than one tree >.>;; ). This one is de last one in de row.
I told Chippy, then she just threw de cherriez in de river again....She didn't seem to mind?

Asdfasdfdfghdfgh?!!?!

"That old man is freaky." I sed, "he kept on looking at us. Blergh!!"
She just shrugged.
It makes me want to throw up, omg, WTF?!!
We walked by. He looked at us again. Fckinggayhomofckabastard. >.>;; I walked almost ran n stopped at the traffic light.
Soon we saw de old man walking.
WTF?! He waited for us to pass then he started walking behind us?!?!?!...........??!!?!?!?

d'OMG.
Watta fcking creep.
I wanna muthafcka-punch that bitch but....I'll get arrested XD haha!!

Note to Self: Wear masks nxt time goin out. LOLol...kiddin >.>;; sigh....
I ain't that hottz...wat is wrong wiz u ppl?!?!! >n<;; I want no attention from y'all. Just JR'z is fine ;3. Heh~


EDIT Crap...I forgot to mention this LOL....was too into writing de stupid story >3> LOL!!! Anyways...
^w^ Akahoshi-gawa DREW SASUKE FO ME AS A GIFT O_O!!!! Haha!!!!! :love: Itz soooooo kute TTwTT *tears of joy*...
Look look!!! http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/36642707/.
^__~ LOVE.


N ye....B-D so koo~~~~
I need ta finish ma Puppetfy drawing I did last week lol...^^;; so complicated I wanted ta die sigh~.